Let Us Pray

Let Us Pray

E.V. Un-Free #4 “Let us pray.” My cousin steps back from the podium. He closes his eyes, clasps his hands and bows his head. He closes the memorial for his grandfather with heartfelt expressions of gratitude, extolling the Lord’s goodness and mercy. But I don’t share...
Sins of the Mother

Sins of the Mother

E.V. Un-Free #3 I sling the canvas bag of clothes into the backseat of my car, buckle up and head for the gym. After class I will return the bag of now clean and folded clothes to my son. He’s been struggling especially hard with depression as of late. I feel every...
Managing Risk

Managing Risk

E.V. Un-Free #2 By fifteen, I had learned that modesty wasn’t about my relationship with God. It was about managing everyone else’s. “Young ladies must dress modestly.” Mr. Whiley’s glasses slipped down the bridge of his nose; he gazed over them. He...
The First Sin I Ever Inherited

The First Sin I Ever Inherited

E.V. Un-Free #1 “E.V. Free” stood for Evangelical Free. Freedom was in the name. Freedom was preached from the pulpit. Freedom in Christ. Freedom from sin. Freedom through salvation. But there was very little freedom to be found. By the time I was six years old, I...
Before Otherwise

Before Otherwise

Before my parents, before my church, before the world told me otherwise, I believed I was me. I believed in me. Before gender roles, before diets, before my body became a problem to solve, I grew at my own pace reaching, unfolding, becoming. My heart knew where it...
Body Stories

Body Stories

I’m celebrating some wonderful writing news today. I recently learned that my essay, “The Negotiation Never Ended,” has been accepted for publication in Body Stories, Story Circle Network’s upcoming anthology. Just the title makes me smile a little, because if you’ve...

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